call me divine

that's a reference to john waters' muse...i'm not saying i'm fabulous and wondrous. in fact people have me feeling just the opposite lately. i know, i know...those who "know" say that you allow people to destroy you becos you are the owner of your feelings.

let's get real here. i'm supposed to sit here and take it when i'm doing what i need to do alleviate myself of a debt (that in the BIG scheme of things isn't huge...like the Nation's pile of money) and i am obviously paying it down now. but no, since i'm in collections, i can be harrassed and harrassed and harrassed.... there is something wrong with that business plan. you and i both know the more you are pushed to do something, the less you want to do it. they want me to set up an automatic payment plan so i don't get harrassed. i've prolly become one of those people they dread when i call. oh no, it's that (MY NAME INSERTED HERE) person. she's got a temper, she's rotten, she's...

this effects you when you're in a bad place already. they break the law. you want to take names and kick butt.

then i work in a place that for some reason they could have a computer doing my job but they prefer humans...even though that's more expensive. but people treat you like that stuff your dog does in the back yard, front yard...anywhere he can. yeah. crap. folks i have a script. i have to stick to the SCRIPT. or if i don't, my pay goes down. i get in trouble. so yes, please abuse me and call me stupid, idiot, and all other names you can pick out of the hat. it makes my everlivin' day. i laugh so hard. some of you are just so stupid and if you looked back at what you did, you would not believe it. your mother would be ashamed of you. would you like it if i went to your job and thoroughly abused the crap out of you? i didn't think so. i am human...and i HAVE FEELINGS!!!

Add those together and with the crap piling on crap...it gets very stinky. and i push away out of my life. i don't want to deal with anyone.

thanks america.